Pre-school as an up and coming narcissist

Experts say that narcissism is most likely initially developed in the teenage years or early adulthood (When does narcissism begin).  So I can’t really say that I recall feeling many narcissistic feelings in my very early days.  What I do remember from pre-school was starting to realize that I was not like the other kids.  I started to feel that I was better than them for reasons explained below. I believe that some of the events that took place in this time of my life set the foundation for my narcissism though.

As mentioned in my last post, my parents were not very well off.  My mom worked at a grocery store and my dad worked as a delivery truck driver.  So we lived in a rather poor neighborhood and I was sent to a local free pre-school during the day while my mom worked.  I don’t remember the very first day of pre-school but what I do remember about that place was that it always seemed very large inside, a big scary place, and the kids there were so unruly.  Everybody was always running around and laughing and playing.  For whatever reason this seemed so odd to me although as an adult I can look back and realize that it is completely normal.  I was always the quiet kid in the back of the room or on the playground sitting by myself observing.  Most of the time I felt that I was better than the other children because I was quiet and “well behaved”.  This feeling stemmed from feedback I was given by my mother and grandmother whenever we would go out to eat, visit friends and family and otherwise be in public.  If we were in public I was being quiet and “well-behaved”.  I believe now the feeling of superiority over the other kids because of my behavior, which was really just a cover-up for my shyness, was a start to a narcissistic pattern of faking my real self that would later become full-blown.

One particular event that I remember was being on the playground wearing overalls and a t-shirt.  It was a hot summer day and one of the teachers came over to me where I was sitting by myself, being “well-behaved” and asked me if something was wrong.  Why was I not playing with the other children?  I couldn’t believe she had the audacity to question why I was being so well-behaved.  Isn’t this what I was supposed to be doing?  I remember telling her that it was too hot outside to be running around like the other kids were doing.  Her solution was for me to remove my t-shirt and keep my overalls on.  I did not like this idea but somehow I was either convinced to do it or forced to do it, I do not remember which.  Once my t-shirt was off I felt even more of an outcast.  Why was I now the only kid on the playground not wearing a shirt?  I felt naked and afraid!  Needless to say this further solidified my need to stay away from the other kids on the playground.

My mom arrived sometime after this all happened and she could tell something was not right about me.  Whether it was because I was behaving more shy than usual or I was crying I don’t exactly remember but she approached the teacher and asked if something happened.  When the teacher explained she told me to take my shirt off because of the heat my mom became very upset.  In her protective manner she let the teacher know she did not appreciate her asking me to remove clothing at school.

Another event I remember was the school Halloween party. It took place after school hours and I did not want to go whatsoever.  The thought of being outside of my element of normal clothes and forced to wear a costume I didn’t want to wear scared the hell out of me.  What would everyone think?  Would they laugh at my costume?  What if my costume wasn’t as good as the other kids?  Well, from my mom’s perspective it was not an option to sit the party out.  She dressed me up as a hobo of all things.  She made me wear my play clothes that were torn and probably had stains.  She charred a cork and rubbed the black part on my face to make a hobo beard.  And she stuffed a pillow in my shirt to give the effect of a large belly.  Then I was driven to the school and sent in to join the, um,  fun.  If I normally felt like an outcast that day I was the king of outcasts in my mind.  As usual I stayed to myself for most of the party.  Throughout the time I was there that stupid pillow my mom put in my shirt kept falling out and someone would always come over and give it to me.  I was so embarrassed. I don’t believe anyone ridiculed me about it but I felt ridiculed by the whole thing.

These types of events as a young child most likely started to cause me to fake my behavior in order to please those around me.  I was always looking to the adults for confirmation of my behavior.  Since those who were closest to me, my mother and grandmother, would praise me for being well-behaved I started to use this behavior as a cover up for my shyness.  I also started to exude the the sense that I was superior to kids my own age, further causing them to resent me. The fact that I was shy was many times mistaken for being stuck-up and snobbish.

Feel free to leave me comments or questions about any of this behavior and perhaps I can provide additional examples of events that took place in those very early years the eventually led to me developing narcissism.  Next post I am going to tackle kindergarten where I believe I had the beginnings of a narcissistic relationship.


Published by


I'm a 40 year old male narcissist, and I'm going to share my experiences with you so that you can learn how our mind ticks

46 thoughts on “Pre-school as an up and coming narcissist”

  1. Hi There! We are looking for experienced people that might be interested in from working their home on a part-time basis. If you want to earn $200 a day, and you don’t mind writing some short opinions up, this might be perfect opportunity for you! Simply click the link here NOW!

  2. Hi There! We are looking for some people that might be interested in from working their home on a full-time basis. If you want to earn $200 a day, and you don’t mind writing some short opinions up, this is the perfect opportunity for you! Simply click the link here NOW!

  3. I’m curious to find out what blog system you happen to be utilizing? I’m experiencing some minor security problems with my latest site and I would like to find something more safeguarded. Do you have any solutions?

  4. Attractive part of content. I simply stumbled upon your site and in accession capital to say that I get in fact enjoyed account your blog posts. Any way I will be subscribing on your augment or even I fulfillment you access constantly rapidly.

  5. Someone necessarily lend a hand to make significantly articles I’d state. This is the first time I frequented your website page and so far? I surprised with the research you made to create this actual publish amazing. Magnificent task!

  6. Do you have a spam issue on this blog; I also am a blogger, and I was wanting to know your situation; we have created some nice practices and we are looking to swap techniques with others, why not shoot me an email if interested.

  7. excellent submit, very informative. I ponder why the other experts of this sector do not notice this. You should continue your writing. I’m sure, you’ve a great readers’ base already!

  8. Hey very nice website!! Man .. Excellent .. Amazing .. I will bookmark your website and take the feeds also…I’m happy to find a lot of useful information here in the post, we need work out more techniques in this regard, thanks for sharing. . . . . .

  9. I just want to say I am just new to blogging and site-building and absolutely liked you’re blog site. More than likely I’m going to bookmark your blog . You really have remarkable article content. With thanks for sharing your blog site.

  10. Hey there just wanted to give you a brief heads up and let you know a few of the images aren’t loading properly. I’m not sure why but I think its a linking issue. I’ve tried it in two different internet browsers and both show the same outcome.

  11. All absolutely free clipart is created by an identical designer. Nowadays you know the best place to locate totally free clipart, you can save a good deal of Googling! AAA Clipart is a superb site on account of the substantial selection of completely free clipart images available there.

  12. It happens to be perfect opportunity to have some goals for the long run. I’ve looked over this blog post and if I can, I want to suggest to you you handful of intriguing ideas.

  13. I simply desire to share it with you that I am new to putting up a blog and clearly valued your review. More than likely I am likely to remember your blog post . You absolutely have excellent article material. Delight In it for discussing with us your main website article

  14. Hiya there, just turned out to be familiar with your blog through Yahoo and bing, and found that it’s really useful. I will take pleasure in in the event you continue this idea.

  15. I merely want to notify you that I am new to blogging and really liked your report. Very likely I am most likely to save your blog post . You undoubtedly have magnificent article information. Get Pleasure From it for discussing with us your very own web post

  16. obviously like your website however you have to test the spelling on several of your posts. Many of them are rife with spelling issues and I in finding it very troublesome to tell the reality however I¡¦ll certainly come back again.

  17. Hello, Neat post. There is a problem with your website in internet explorer, would test this¡K IE nonetheless is the market leader and a large element of other folks will miss your great writing due to this problem.

  18. I’m not sure where you are getting your information, but good topic. I needs to spend some time learning more or understanding more. Thanks for great info I was looking for this information for my mission.

  19. Nice blog here! Also your website loads up very fast! What web host are you using? Can I get your affiliate link to your host? I wish my web site loaded up as quickly as yours lol

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *