I’m a covert narcissist

When I first started this blog a few days ago I had the sole intention of spending each blog post on the next stage of my life.  Then I realized that would probably get boring over time so I’m going to throw some different topics in the mix every few posts.  Plus this will help provide more context around the blogs that do deal mainly with things that have happened in my life.

After years of having my 2nd ex-wife tell me that I am a narcissist and finding books about being in love with a narcissist all over the house I started to do some research on the topic but I never really thought of myself as a narcissist.  I just thought this was my ex-wife’s way of explaining to herself why our marriage was in shambles.  Basically, she was blaming me for our marriage falling apart and she was putting a label on it called narcissism.  It wasn’t until May of this year (2016) that I started connecting some dots while scouring the internet because a girl I had recently dated had some strange behavior patterns and when I told a friend about it he said she sounded like a narcissist.  I began to read a lot of articles on the topic and there are plenty of websites out there that list common traits of a narcissist.  On most lists I found myself checking off every single item.  Here is a list of 21 signs you are narcissist (21 signs you are a narcissist).  I checked off 18 out of 21 or the items.  Here are the 3 I didn’t check off:  I’m not an entertainer, I’m not young anymore (I’m 40) and girls don’t dump me after 4 months.  I usually do the dumping.

I took the standard narcissism quiz that can be found here and scored a 30, which is pretty high.  Any score above a 17 indicates a certain level of narcissism with 40 being the highest score you can get.  What I don’t think this quiz takes into account is that there are different types of narcissists.  When most people think of narcissism  they think of people like Donald Trump.  Loud-mouthed, always in the center of attention wherever they go, very outgoing.  Well, that is not me at all.  I’m a shy, reserved kind of guy.  So how can I be a narcissist?  It turns out there are two types of narcissists: overt and covert narcissists.  The overt narcissist is what I described above: aggressive, arrogant, loud, obnoxious.  The covert narcissist is the opposite: shy, reserved and modest.  Here is a good article on the two types of narcissists (Overt and covert narcissists).

With all of this evidence of me being a narcissist I have finally come to the realization that what my ex-wife had been telling me all along is true.  I am a textbook covert narcissist.  Remember when I said I could only check off 18 of the 21 items on the list above?  Well, the reason I am not an entertainer is because I am a covert narcissist.  You’d have to be overt to want to put yourself out there like that.  “So what do I do now?” I asked myself.  Well, I’ve decided that I am going to own this like a boss.  Since I’ve seen how my behavior has hurt so many people I am going to be consciously aware of my actions and words from now on.  And I am going to write this blog at minimum 5 days a week so that I can truly get my story out there and hopefully help people learn about what kinds of events a child experiences to lead to narcissism and give my readers an in-depth look at what a narcissist is really thinking and feeling when they do the things they do.  My guess is that some of the things I am thinking  when I do something is going to shock you.  You are probably not going to like me very much and that is ok.  I have intentionally left the comments section wide open so that people can say whatever they want.  I am going to have to be very thick skinned but I am ready for that.

Narc

 

Published by

Narc

I'm a 40 year old male narcissist, and I'm going to share my experiences with you so that you can learn how our mind ticks

176 thoughts on “I’m a covert narcissist”

  1. Hi There! We are looking for some people that might be interested in from working their home on a full-time basis. If you want to earn $500 a day, and you don’t mind creating some short opinions up, this is the perfect opportunity for you! Simply click the link here NOW!

  2. Hi There! We are looking for some people that are interested in from working their home on a full-time basis. If you want to earn $500 a day, and you don’t mind writing some short opinions up, this is the perfect opportunity for you! Simply check out the link here NOW!

  3. Hi There! We are searching for experienced people that are interested in from working their home on a full-time basis. If you want to earn $200 a day, and you don’t mind writing some short opinions up, this might be perfect opportunity for you! Simply click the link here NOW!

  4. Hi There! We are searching for some people that are interested in from working their home on a full-time basis. If you want to earn $100 a day, and you don’t mind developing some short opinions up, this is the perfect opportunity for you! Simply click the link here NOW!

  5. Hi There! We are looking for some people that are interested in from working their home on a part-time basis. If you want to earn $100 a day, and you don’t mind developing some short opinions up, this is the perfect opportunity for you! Simply click the link here NOW!

  6. Hi There! We are looking for experienced people that might be interested in from working their home on a part-time basis. If you want to earn $100 a day, and you don’t mind developing some short opinions up, this is the perfect opportunity for you! Simply check out the link here NOW!

  7. I located a fantastic web site for boxing fans. It is a boxing website which has videos of the greatest competitors of all times. The videos are mostly of the leading one hundred boxers of all times and there are numerous video clips on this internet site. You should inspect the website out.
    bye

  8. you’re really a good website owner. The site loading pace is incredible. It seems that you’re doing just about any unique trick. In addition, The contents are masterwork. you get performed an outstanding job in this matter!

  9. you’re really a good website owner. The site loading pace is incredible. It seems that you’re doing just about any unique trick. In addition, The contents are masterwork. you get performed an outstanding job in this matter!

  10. You’re a star, thanks for taking the trouble to put this up and lots of useful comments- page favourited. The manual is diabolical and I’d had lots of trouble finding how to get the unit to put turn signals up over the display screen I was looking at.I have the City maps, and use the Garmin Connect planner, which in my view is pretty good, and uploads straight into the unit.Needless to say, I sync the Edge with Strava when I get home to see how bad I still am compared to everyone else!Nice cars by the way- S3 XJ is one of my favourites, and in that colour combo!

  11. you’re really a good website owner. The site loading pace is incredible. It seems that you’re doing just about any unique trick. In addition, The contents are masterwork. you get performed an outstanding job in this matter!

  12. You guys are sik perchers,come up to my lake, lake simcoe perch capital. nice videos watched your ice fishn vids too I am just getting into perch this year they tricky . keep up the good fishn……

  13. you’re in point of fact a good webmaster. The website loading velocity is amazing. It seems that you’re doing any distinctive trick. In addition, The contents are masterpiece. you’ve done a great activity on this subject!

  14. You’ve nailed it – it’s actually quite frustrating since we use PHP 5.3 internally and have for awhile but the fact remains if we switched our primary PHP version over a large portion of customer scripts would either flat out break or have unexpected behavior.Grumble!

  15. You’re a star, thanks for taking the trouble to put this up and lots of useful comments- page favourited. The manual is diabolical and I’d had lots of trouble finding how to get the unit to put turn signals up over the display screen I was looking at.I have the City maps, and use the Garmin Connect planner, which in my view is pretty good, and uploads straight into the unit.Needless to say, I sync the Edge with Strava when I get home to see how bad I still am compared to everyone else!Nice cars by the way- S3 XJ is one of my favourites, and in that colour combo!

  16. You’ve nailed it – it’s actually quite frustrating since we use PHP 5.3 internally and have for awhile but the fact remains if we switched our primary PHP version over a large portion of customer scripts would either flat out break or have unexpected behavior.Grumble!

  17. Thank you, I’ve just been looking for info about this topic for a while and yours is the greatest I have discovered so far. But, what in regards to the bottom line? Are you sure about the supply?

  18. Wonderful beat ! I wish to apprentice while you amend your site, how can i subscribe for a blog web site? The account helped me a acceptable deal. I had been tiny bit acquainted of this your broadcast offered bright clear concept

  19. your holiday product reviews time them to post when your readers can still take advantage of them. Zippy Sandler The Review Broads An Interview Zippy is funny, in fact hilarious at times, but that doesn’t mean she isn’t knowledgeable about

  20. You should visit your healthcare provider to find out whether you actually have low T or simply the natural decrease in testosterone level associated with aging before considering testosterone treatment.

  21. you’re in point of fact a good webmaster. The website loading velocity is amazing. It seems that you’re doing any distinctive trick. In addition, The contents are masterpiece. you’ve done a great activity on this subject!

  22. You’re a star, thanks for taking the trouble to put this up and lots of useful comments- page favourited. The manual is diabolical and I’d had lots of trouble finding how to get the unit to put turn signals up over the display screen I was looking at.I have the City maps, and use the Garmin Connect planner, which in my view is pretty good, and uploads straight into the unit.Needless to say, I sync the Edge with Strava when I get home to see how bad I still am compared to everyone else!Nice cars by the way- S3 XJ is one of my favourites, and in that colour combo!

  23. YouTube, please fix the subscriptions.Everytime I watch a video that I subscribe to, it reappears in the subscriptions list. I think there is a glitch.Also, I do not watch all the people I subscribe to. So I suggest adding a delete button such as “Delete all checked” or something similar.

  24. You’ll find it near extremely difficult to come across well-qualified men or women on this theme, still, you look like you are familiar with the things you’re indicating! Regards

  25. your holiday product reviews time them to post when your readers can still take advantage of them. Zippy Sandler The Review Broads An Interview Zippy is funny, in fact hilarious at times, but that doesn’t mean she isn’t knowledgeable about

  26. “Best Blogpost! Hello Admin! Thanks for this article, very good information, I will be_ forwarding this to some friends, if you’re ok with that. Greetings from Germany!”

  27. You should speak to your physician before using any kind of testosterone supplement since none of the effects advertised have been approved by the Food and Drug Administration.

  28. You’ve nailed it – it’s actually quite frustrating since we use PHP 5.3 internally and have for awhile but the fact remains if we switched our primary PHP version over a large portion of customer scripts would either flat out break or have unexpected behavior.Grumble!

  29. You’ve nailed it – it’s actually quite frustrating since we use PHP 5.3 internally and have for awhile but the fact remains if we switched our primary PHP version over a large portion of customer scripts would either flat out break or have unexpected behavior.Grumble!

  30. Youre so cool! I dont suppose Ive read anything like this prior to. So nice to uncover somebody with many original thoughts on this subject. realy appreciate beginning this up. this fabulous website are some things that is required on the web, an individual with some originality. valuable work for bringing something new for the net!

  31. You’ve nailed it – it’s actually quite frustrating since we use PHP 5.3 internally and have for awhile but the fact remains if we switched our primary PHP version over a large portion of customer scripts would either flat out break or have unexpected behavior.Grumble!

  32. You’ve been eating well and if you have never been before this first plan on testosterone therapy and exercising from commencement, you’ll certainly surprise yourself at the amount of transformation you’ll have experienced by then.

  33. You were so fortunate to have had him. I feel fortunate to have spent time with him. He was the only person I’ve ever called “Daddy” ( I called my own father “R.T.”) and Mr. Wells went along with that appellation from a friend of his beloved “El.” I think of his sayings often–just the other day I was preparing for war in time of peace–something I have only recently learned to do in the context in which he meant it. A lovely, well-deserved tribute.

  34. You were so fortunate to have had him. I feel fortunate to have spent time with him. He was the only person I’ve ever called “Daddy” ( I called my own father “R.T.”) and Mr. Wells went along with that appellation from a friend of his beloved “El.” I think of his sayings often–just the other day I was preparing for war in time of peace–something I have only recently learned to do in the context in which he meant it. A lovely, well-deserved tribute.

  35. Your affordable wireless support, our endless nationwide 4G LTE insurance, the fastest nationwide 4G LTE circle, and our top-ranked wireless gadgets are all made to do something: assist the people of Oceanside, CA remain attached to what is most significant in their mind – athome and virtually wherever they go.

  36. Appreciating the persistence you put into your website and detailed information you present. It’s great to come across a blog every once in a while that isn’t the same out of date rehashed information. Wonderful read! I’ve bookmarked your site and I’m including your RSS feeds to my Google account.

  37. You’ve nailed it – it’s actually quite frustrating since we use PHP 5.3 internally and have for awhile but the fact remains if we switched our primary PHP version over a large portion of customer scripts would either flat out break or have unexpected behavior.Grumble!

  38. You tell such funny stories, LOL!!!! But what I really want to know is did she win anything??? If she did than you should get half for all the hard labor, LOL!!! I love this card, I want to make one like it, hint, hint!!! Have a great night!!:o)P.S. thanks for the special delievery this morning :o)

  39. You’ll find it practically extremely difficult to see well-aware people on this niche, still you seem like you comprehend those things you’re preaching about! Excellent

  40. You tell such funny stories, LOL!!!! But what I really want to know is did she win anything??? If she did than you should get half for all the hard labor, LOL!!! I love this card, I want to make one like it, hint, hint!!! Have a great night!!:o)P.S. thanks for the special delievery this morning :o)

  41. You’ll find it practically extremely difficult to see well-aware people on this niche, still you seem like you comprehend those things you’re preaching about! Excellent

  42. Oh my goodness! an wonderful write-up dude. Thank you Having said that I am experiencing issue with ur rss . Do not know why Unable to subscribe to it. Is there anyone getting identical rss difficulty? Anybody who knows kindly respond.

  43. Its like you learn my thoughts! You seem to know a lot approximately this, such as you wrote the e book in it or something. I believe that you can do with some percent to force the message home a little bit, however instead of that, that is excellent blog. A great read. I will certainly be back.

  44. I used to be recommended this web site through my cousin. I am not positive whether this submit is written through him as nobody else understand such detailed about my trouble. You’re amazing! Thank you!

  45. your holiday product reviews time them to post when your readers can still take advantage of them. Zippy Sandler The Review Broads An Interview Zippy is funny, in fact hilarious at times, but that doesn’t mean she isn’t knowledgeable about

  46. Hey There. I discovered your blog using msn. This is an extremely well written article. I will make sure to bookmark it and return to learn more of your helpful information. Thanks for the post. I’ll definitely return.

  47. You tell such funny stories, LOL!!!! But what I really want to know is did she win anything??? If she did than you should get half for all the hard labor, LOL!!! I love this card, I want to make one like it, hint, hint!!! Have a great night!!:o)P.S. thanks for the special delievery this morning :o)

  48. Your affordable wireless support, our endless nationwide 4G LTE insurance, the fastest nationwide 4G LTE circle, and our top-ranked wireless gadgets are all made to do something: assist the people of Oceanside, CA remain attached to what is most significant in their mind – athome and virtually wherever they go.

  49. You’ve nailed it – it’s actually quite frustrating since we use PHP 5.3 internally and have for awhile but the fact remains if we switched our primary PHP version over a large portion of customer scripts would either flat out break or have unexpected behavior.Grumble!

  50. You should speak to your physician before using any kind of testosterone supplement since none of the effects advertised have been approved by the Food and Drug Administration.

  51. your holiday product reviews time them to post when your readers can still take advantage of them. Zippy Sandler The Review Broads An Interview Zippy is funny, in fact hilarious at times, but that doesn’t mean she isn’t knowledgeable about

  52. Definitely consider that which you said. Your favorite justification seemed to be on the net the easiest factor to have in mind of. I say to you, I definitely get irked whilst folks think about issues that they just do not realize about. You managed to hit the nail upon the top as well as defined out the whole thing without having side-effects , folks can take a signal. Will probably be back to get more. Thank you

  53. You’re a star, thanks for taking the trouble to put this up and lots of useful comments- page favourited. The manual is diabolical and I’d had lots of trouble finding how to get the unit to put turn signals up over the display screen I was looking at.I have the City maps, and use the Garmin Connect planner, which in my view is pretty good, and uploads straight into the unit.Needless to say, I sync the Edge with Strava when I get home to see how bad I still am compared to everyone else!Nice cars by the way- S3 XJ is one of my favourites, and in that colour combo!

  54. Youre so cool! I dont suppose Ive read anything like this prior to. So nice to uncover somebody with many original thoughts on this subject. realy appreciate beginning this up. this fabulous website are some things that is required on the web, an individual with some originality. valuable work for bringing something new for the net!

  55. Hi There! We are searching for experienced people that are interested in from working their home on a full-time basis. If you want to earn $500 a day, and you don’t mind creating some short opinions up, this might be perfect opportunity for you! Simply check out the link here NOW!

  56. You’ll find it near extremely difficult to come across well-qualified men or women on this theme, still, you look like you are familiar with the things you’re indicating! Regards

  57. you’re in point of fact a good webmaster. The website loading velocity is amazing. It seems that you’re doing any distinctive trick. In addition, The contents are masterpiece. you’ve done a great activity on this subject!

  58. Your physician may also prescribe this drug as a treatment for breast cancer or other medical conditions along with taking testosterone to treat a low sexual drive.

  59. En el caso de que estemos inscritos en un registro de morosidad, se pueden solicitar créditos rápidos con ASNEF,
    según sea nuestra situación financiera, en este
    supuesto el importe máximo al que se tendrá acceso
    será de 750€ al instante.

    creditos rapidos sin nomina online

  60. You were so fortunate to have had him. I feel fortunate to have spent time with him. He was the only person I’ve ever called “Daddy” ( I called my own father “R.T.”) and Mr. Wells went along with that appellation from a friend of his beloved “El.” I think of his sayings often–just the other day I was preparing for war in time of peace–something I have only recently learned to do in the context in which he meant it. A lovely, well-deserved tribute.

  61. you’re in point of fact a good webmaster. The website loading velocity is amazing. It seems that you’re doing any distinctive trick. In addition, The contents are masterpiece. you’ve done a great activity on this subject!

  62. You’ve nailed it – it’s actually quite frustrating since we use PHP 5.3 internally and have for awhile but the fact remains if we switched our primary PHP version over a large portion of customer scripts would either flat out break or have unexpected behavior.Grumble!

  63. YouTube, please fix the subscriptions.Everytime I watch a video that I subscribe to, it reappears in the subscriptions list. I think there is a glitch.Also, I do not watch all the people I subscribe to. So I suggest adding a delete button such as “Delete all checked” or something similar.

  64. I discovered your weblog internet site on google and check several of one’s early posts. Continue to maintain up the very superior operate. I just extra up your RSS feed to my MSN News Reader. Looking for forward to reading far more from you later on!

  65. great points altogether, you just gained a new reader. What might you suggest in regards to your submit that you made a few days ago? Any certain?

  66. A formidable share, I just given this onto a colleague who was doing somewhat analysis on this. And he in fact purchased me breakfast as a result of I discovered it for him.. smile. So let me reword that: Thnx for the deal with! But yeah Thnkx for spending the time to discuss this, I really feel strongly about it and love reading extra on this topic. If potential, as you turn into experience, would you thoughts updating your blog with more particulars? It is extremely helpful for me. Huge thumb up for this blog publish!

  67. I just want to tell you that I am new to weblog and absolutely liked you’re web blog. Most likely I’m going to bookmark your blog . You absolutely come with impressive stories. Kudos for sharing your website page.

  68. I simply want to say I’m very new to blogs and seriously loved you’re web-site. More than likely I’m likely to bookmark your blog post . You definitely have very good well written articles. With thanks for sharing with us your webpage.

  69. Hello there! I know this is somewhat off topic but I was wondering if you knew where I could locate a captcha plugin for my comment form? I’m using the same blog platform as yours and I’m having trouble finding one? Thanks a lot!

  70. All absolutely free clipart is created by an identical designer. Nowadays you know the best place to locate totally free clipart, you can save a good deal of Googling! AAA Clipart is a superb site on account of the substantial selection of completely free clipart images available there.

  71. I just want to share it with you that I am new to posting and clearly admired your article. Very possible I am prone to remember your blog post . You undoubtedly have amazing article material. Be Thankful For it for giving out with us your main site document

  72. It happens to be perfect opportunity to have some schemes for the long-run. I’ve read through this post and if I can, I desire to suggest you a few significant advice.

  73. Hi There! We are looking for some people that are interested in from working their home on a full-time basis. If you want to earn $500 a day, and you don’t mind developing some short opinions up, this is the perfect opportunity for you! Simply check out the link here NOW!

  74. Great post. I was checking constantly this blog and I’m impressed! Extremely helpful information particularly the last part 🙂 I care for such info much. I was looking for this particular info for a very long time. Thank you and good luck.

  75. Great post. I was checking constantly this blog and I’m impressed! Extremely useful info particularly the last part 🙂 I care for such info much. I was looking for this certain information for a long time. Thank you and best of luck.

  76. Simply want to say your article is as surprising. The clarity in your post is simply great and i could assume you are an expert on this subject. Well with your permission let me to grab your feed to keep up to date with forthcoming post. Thanks a million and please keep up the rewarding work.

  77. you’re in point of fact a good webmaster. The web site loading pace is amazing. It sort of feels that you’re doing any distinctive trick. Moreover, The contents are masterpiece. you have done a great job on this topic!

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *