As I have mentioned in a previous post I’m going to interject some current stories in this blog to break up the monotony of my life story growing up to add some excitement. This post is a story about some recent narcissistic behavior I have done. At the time I didn’t even realize I was doing something narcissistic and I have corrected the behavior but the damage is already done.
During my last divorce my ex-wife and I were separated but living in the same house. I lived in the downstairs bedroom and my ex continued to live in our bedroom. I thought the divorce was going to be quick so I started dating again. I met a woman and we hit it off right away. Looking back now she was also a narcissist, which probably added fuel to the fire and I will detail this relationship in a future post. Long story short we had the over-evaluation phase with each other with constant texts and admiration and adoration. We both did some devaluing but I was the one to eventually do the discard. I slept with my soon-to-be ex-wife one night and didn’t call the new flame. She eventually contacted me to find out what happened and I just told her that I was still married and I thought that hurt her and I didn’t want to hurt her anymore.
Anyways, we kept in touch for the next few months. She told me her ex-boyfriend might be moving to town but I didn’t believe her. We started to sext each other on a regular basis and then at one point I cut it off again. One day I saw a Snapchat post in which she was with a new guy. I flew into a narcissistic rage, calling her every name in the book over a text message. I then later apologized but by that time the damage was done and she said she was going to continue the relationship with her ex.
I’ve recently been dating someone new and 2 nights ago I decided to try to hurt her by putting up a profile pic on Whatsapp of me with my new girlfriend. My sole purpose now that I think about it was to make her as jealous as possible. I wanted her to see it and be extremely hurt by seeing me with another woman. I replaced the profile picture with a new one with me and my daughter in it. Reflecting back though, the only reason I put that new picture up was to hurt her. I might’ve even kept the profile picture up but my new girlfriend insisted I take it down as we have only been dating 3 weeks and the picture implied a very serious relationship.
So is the life of a narcissist, doing things in life just to hurt those that have rejected and hurt us.